woah woah waoh!!

huhu!! i totally forgot that i have a blogger acc?! its been years since my last post! i know ryte?! how possible is that?! huhu!! but i guess i was occupied with National Service duties or something else. huhu. couldn't recall much.

anyways this year i have turned twenty four years of age and i must say that time flies extremely fast. very fast that within a blink, its NOW 2011! definitely many changes and went thru hardship. but now. I STILL LOVE YOU. I STILL MISS YOU. I STILL NEED YOU. =(

no control

i can't control. i can't control myself. am i being attitude? ATTITUDE?! WHAT THE HELL IS ATTITUDE!? CONTROL?! WHAT ALL FCUK IS THAT?! but i am really being myself. i just cant help it with whad happened and the situation is all complicated. let time answer it all.

fly high

Alhamdulillah. life is beginning to feel delicious again. slowly and slowly Allah show us love again between my family members. Insya' Allah, we will be easier in everythin as tyme passed by. Amin.

ANUGERAH 2009 vs POLICE FORCE, which do u side?! hahaha. been bz thinkin and practising but its juz not the rite tyme to join in the comp. why?! all thanks to singapore police force, i am being FORCED to serve. haha.

ok NEXT!

the problem abt me now is that wheneva i face the comp, my mind suddenly blackout and am speechless to blog but when i'm off the comp, ideas are all over! damn!!

soo here i am ......

unwanted

initially i thought of creating something different to way of blog. but by blogging its my only way to express my feelings and emotions. u might think, "whad the hell?" butt i simply dont care. this is my blog. this is my place. this is where i write my stories. this is my blog.

life is pretty challenging. we hv to face the world with all sort of problems. who can run away frm them? everyone is facing problems. the question is, "how do you solve the problems?" yes its easy to say than been done.

i'm financially broke. lots of problems with my _____. i need this product to maintain my ____. with it, my ____ wont be as healthy. with then i need to cut down on smoking. the next question is, am i mentally prepared to face the challenge?? i dont noeee ....

changEd

yes. as some of you guys hv already found out abt my blog i wish to say a bigg hOla!! =P anyways whad's happening to my family? my siblings seem to change and that includes me too. ns life is fcukin bored that i got sick of it so i spend time more with my cousins. my sis is schooling and been goin home late and same goes to my bro. its been awhile we talk, eat together or even go out together. i miss having dinner with them. i miss spending quality times with them. wad shld i do? i dont want us to be apart away.

mum is so pressured with her children's behabivour. her children is often home late. well the reason we are hm late, she'll nag at us wheneva we're hm. we're stress at home too. i dont noe if anyone can understand wad i'm sharing. i changed alot too. i seldom pray also. sighhhh. i dont noe wad i shld do.

surprises

when u are so looking forward to the meet and it was cancel, how do u feel? i feel, 'What The HELL?!" anyways for the past few days hv bn really a pleasant surprise. i'm sure not juz me, but also to my cousins. we went to sentosa and took the luge n skyride, unplan. so imagine the unxpected surprise we felt that moment. i hv yet to take those pictures frm Hazim, but i sure will do. anyway this is my brand new blog and i wish to keep it simple.

the start

Nothing can describe, the way I feel for you
Your love is warm and precious
Your heart so pure and true
Heavens angels brought me
To knock upon your door
To give you all my love
To keep you wanting more
The special bond we share, will guide us on our way
To a perfect life were dreams come true
What more can I really say
We were brought together, never will we part
Your my special gift
Your my shining star
I'll love you unconditionally
With all my heart and soul
I'll never break your spirit
I'll always keep you whole